the crap you dont care about

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 08:20:09 GMT

I'm no superman.

October 5, 1967 - November 18, 2008

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 20:14:15 GMT

i love you. and miss you already

Here is my own family tradition
Following footsteps into addiction
So is there a way that I can find peace
While still numbing my pain
Is this my fate?
Cause your only son still can't seem to find his way
So mother where the hell are you now?
I think that you would be proud
Your son whos so unluckly
Fell right next to the tree
I hope your proud of me,
I hope you're proud.

R.I.P.

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 16:48:36 GMT

i love you mom

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 05:19:37 GMT

once again, as usual. things are either about to get better, or theyre going to get worse.... yes, worse

im still getting older and its still terrifying. my 19th birthday is not too far away. im aware that 19 doesnt sound that old. but 20 does, to me at least, and its getting to me.

i work constantly. somehow i ended up in charge?

i cannot wait until april. spring break. tour. what else needs to be said?

Obama. thank god.

cold weather is rather unpleasant.

hey kid, it isn't over.

what. is. going. on.

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 05:37:43 GMT

usually as people get older, you assume that they'd get more mature and less annoying. But for some reason it seems like half the people i see on a daily basis are gravitating to the complete opposite behavior.
its getting really irritating.

Very few thing truly bother me (rednecks, "professional" poker, and the jonas brothers are a few examples) to the point where i frequently become outraged. But these people are on thin ice...
i guess its a good thing that winter is soon then.

i noticed that in april i said that in a month, most things that weren't going very well would turn around and be fine....

i couldn't have been any more mistaken. the metaphor of the snowball effect comes to mind quite vividly.

Things could be worse i guess... I just wish i wasn't so close to the bottom.

someone should hook me up with a job.

as always, the only things that seem to be going well are those that relate to this band im in. recording is going well, and everyone seems to finally be on top of things, which is a good change.

not to mention. we're playing with the Ataris. weird right?

anyway, i cannot wait for next weekend, its gonnna godly.

that is all

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 09:40:11 GMT

we're opening a venue.

=]

there are none more obsurdly ambitious.

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 08:03:55 GMT

hhhmmmm, its been a while.

god is repeatedly shitting on me.

thats about it.

the dark knight is amazing.

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 07:04:52 GMT

RIP george c.
(1937-2008)

shit. piss. fuck. cunt. cocksucker. motherfucker. tits.

i wish my lip would stop bleeding

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 04:25:58 GMT

everything is overwhelming, and nothing is satisfying.

i need to be able to jump ahead maybe a month or so, because im convinced that most of this will have passed by then.

ive never had such a strong combination of optimism and terror before.

i couldnt even tell you if things havent gotten better or worse in the last few weeks or months. the only thing i am certain of is that im older, and thats weighing on me way the fuck more than it should.

its time to get to work.

the time for Chutes and Ladders has long since passed.

have fun,.

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 19:08:11 GMT

you completely fake coward. nobody has any fucking respect for you, and i hope you realize on a daily basis that most ppl around you are pretty much indifferent to your existence.

fuck you.

youre going to go absolutely nowhere.

eat shit.

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 06:35:13 GMT

tonight, on the way back from centerline, the car that dennis was driving(with matt and emily as passengers).... the hood flew up and smashed the windshield.

there's always a story. this one wasnt amusing.

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 23:46:00 GMT

this is beginning to get out of hand.

shut up already.

nobody fucking cares what you think.

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 08:27:20 GMT

wellll its the new year..

and its snowing like crazy. its terrifying to drive in ssoo much snow. whats worse is, its not even like i have the option of not driving. dxecrfgvhkbjb

the new year is supposed to bring change.... however its far too painfully obvious that what i want to change, isnt going to. and theres no way for ME to help any. its all on them.

the good news is, the EP is almost done. 7 songs. 6 months. 5 jobs. 4 kids. 3 cars. 2 new songs in the works. 1 band. how much work does it take, until ANY respect is gained. even if only from the few ppl who appear to already have some for you...

dont you fucking dare belittle what has more heart than anything youve ever done.

happy new year.

i turn 18 in 14 days....
"youre so old"
"nooo im not!!!"
i realize now, that i was lying

dont shoot your eyes out kids

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 05:07:20 GMT

it is clearly that time of year again. the time where my usual hatred of money multiplies by about 10^23. i despise winter and frankly, it wouldnt hurt santa to lose a few pounds, and maybe he'll actually be ale to fit his fat ass in to EVERY house.

i miss the bird that made me fly.

i cannot stand the promos for comedy central's "13 days of x-mad" with the singing elf-ish black guy. they piss me off

i love the amount of reading ive been doing and how i seem to (legally) have a constant stream of boooks just waiting for me.
next up Dry. and then Freakanomics

i turn 18 soon, which is really bothering me. It feels like my obsessions with Pokemon, Ring Pops, Nickelodeon, and Sock'em Boppers were present only yesterday. But no, i'll be 18, and hopefully chicago bound by this time next year.

my new phone is amazing.

if you want tickets to our Royal Oak Music Theatre show, let me know.

and seriously. Fuck the holidays. i hope santa shoves a menorah up his ass and up the ass of any reindeer WITHOUT a glowing red nose.
i would have thrown in a kwanza reference...but who the fuck celerates kwanza? honestly. im black(ish) and i dont even know what it is..

im going to be a writer. in what form, im not sure, but i will be

im tired.
and craving cocoa puffs.

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 00:52:36 GMT

aaahhhhhh my new phone is ssoo awesome and pretty and !!!!!!!

but other than that... everything is still exhausting.

show on saturday. opening up for... my math teachers and??!!!!!!!!

its at school. sat. 7pm. 5$ i believe

anyway. thats about it

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 03:31:55 GMT

save me.

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 01:44:52 GMT

anyone know how to break into a car?

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 03:45:05 GMT

the show went surprisingly well despite: a bass string breaking, everyone learning a song in the parking lot 5 minutes before we go on, jonny forgetting the words to 'jamie all over', dennis being out of tune, jonny playing bass instead of...just singing,my stick breaking first song,the sticks almost flyng out of my hand about a dozen times, and my arms feeling like they were aflame.

yeah. it was fucking decent. and the fact that we have another one in a week is amazing.
October 9th. Royal Oak Elks Club.(4th street and Stevenson).starts at 5. tickets are 8$
find me if you want one.

and now im tired... but not ready to sleep.
and have nothing to do.....

k bye.

i dont know what carnival youre talking about.
this must be some kind of ruse, a bit of trickery i must say...
yes thats it.

....and through all this, theres nobody....

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 05:18:34 GMT

nothings falling into place.

im sick of settling.

fuck YOU.
fuck THIS.
fuck EVERYTHING.

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 14:08:59 GMT

sweet. good job universe. way to have everything collapse over me at once. yeah. i was hoping to have everything fall apart and have nothing go right. thanx.

my car is pissing me off. and too many occaisions have come up where i couldve gotten a new one but my parents are just like... hihwighlh no.

theyre pissing me off as well too. im constantly driving around for them. and then when i ask for a new car they say that it should be completely up to me to buy it. um no. fuck you. i would drive 1/3 as much as i do now if i didnt have to run errands or parents to work or sisters to fucking swimming. but thats cool... im sure when a wheel flies off while im driving down the freeway one day, and i crash into a semi which then crashes into a bus full of small children and then dozens of smaller cars are destroyed...... im sure my parents will havr enough money to for all that damage and all the hospital bills as oppose to a little over a grand for nice, SAFE, undeathtrap car.

tonight was ridiculous in so many ways.
i loved it. i hated it.i didnt want it to end. sleep took too long to come.

im convinced i went to the wrong high school.

i really wish ppl would stop flaking out.

hm. guess ill end here.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 06:19:44 GMT

so um..

www.myspace.com/quickshotace

yeah. new songs, what?

bats; im sorry

k.

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 08:44:29 GMT

ipod found

thank you lauren//matt

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 04:52:19 GMT

its 1 a.m.

...hmm... what to dooooo.....

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 06:31:44 GMT

summer is fading and i can honestly say, not only has this been an amazing summer, but i also cannot wait to go back to school.im just, excited.

i cant believe my ipod is gone. what the fuck.

my car is in somewhat better condition now than when i got it... which is good i guess.. but im stilll going to get a new one.

recording is almost done. AH!

its good to have inspiration again; especially when i see them everyday.

SEASON 3 OF HOUSE IS OUT ON DVD#@@!@!!!!!!!!$@!%)$Iy3okgejvmk fgh

i stilll love my job however it needs to be busier... im sick of being sent home early because of how slow it is.

criss angel is complete bullshit.... buts almost 3 so ill continue watching.

umm....

ffffffuuuuuuuccccccccckkkkkkk

oh btw, youre fake

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 00:16:11 GMT

ive become way to complacent with the way things are; i shouldve known they would change.
its ridiculous that something that everyone knows would destroy everything

this is completel bullshit.

i didnt go to work today...

hopefully tomorrow ill have a new phone..
and also soon, a new car...

ppl need to come back

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done?